Wrap Up

The last time I felt like this was months ago and its really killing me slowly. Its a karma, I think. Im so busuk hati that i feel like i wanted to be in everyone’s life. I want them to feel that they need me and my existence is so meaningful to them. I just dont know whether this is the right thing to do tho its been months and almost a year that i started to mess up. Oh god, what is this.  It hurts more when youre the one who hurts a lot of people. I know that if somebody hurt me , i wont be actin this way bcs i dont feel like i do need to be sad or guilty towards others. But now, dah nak setahun but fuck this feelings i dont wanna think anymore. I dont deserve any love bcs i know deep down im just a stupid and selfish person ( no matter how many times i refuse to admit but yeap) i lost so many people so many friends and now i finally have the guts to admit that im  actually the toxic person in everyone’s life .