Wrap Up

The truth is i dont have many friends that i can actually rely to here. Ive been relying a lot on my bf, on everything. My studies, my family, my friendship and all. And i was grateful for that but now i couldnt believe that this thing is actually happening. Im tired, i risked everything but it will never be good enough to everyone. I desperately wanna go out of this place, i cannot tahan anymore. I dont know who else could i talk to, im havinng a severe headache, my eyes are burning from the sleepless night. The last time i ate was yesterday’s afternoon. And i wanted to puke so bad but nothing came out. I keep on crying from time to time, try to forget the stupid conversation. Wondering why he didnt  come and explain himself, why did he remain silent. I dont know until when will i be like this but this is tiring. I even had a fever now, probably bcs i cried the whole night. But sigh it doesnt matter anymore to him. He never loved me, and nobody actually did. I was never a priority to anyone. What i feel and think doesnt really matter to people. And im tired of this.