Today,again. I discovered that another friend of my suddenly sort of ‘remember’ aboutt this blog thingy, and obvs checking on mine too. I wanted to be seen stronger like me= strong, unlikely fragile and vulnerable. I know ived posted about this kind of thing a lot like almost every post. But it feels uneasy when suddenly people came and sort of ambushing your safe place. I mean, please dont, i bite yknow. i feel ok if nobody read my blog or whatsoever. It only works like letters to the future me.
But really, i do bite people. I mean if you just here just bcs you wanted to see how vulnerable i can be sometimes, please dont. I hate the feeling of being judged over all of my posts in this blog. I realise and i know that i looked like a mad woman, almost crazy, but not yet.
Anyways,
So i woke up today, suddenly wondering why i didnt start my own band yet (haha i know i laughed too) been wanting to be the cool kid since day 1. I said i didnt have anything special in me, expect for yknow reading educational materials a lot. I know that im such a nerdie ( but in denial) i wanted to do more things like a those grown up peopl in early 20s. I did my online business, selling socks nahhh it didn’t turned out good. Nak jadi instafamous lagi lah idok nya. So idk, if i ever wanted to be part of a band, im not that competent enough. My hands are so small pipel ! Its so hard for me to play the bar chords like yknow stretch here amd there.
Lany’s tour in malaysia !!!! Freakin 27th july but its ayah’s birthday. So yknow probably just sing the whole album in the bathroom and cry
Oh suddenly i realise that i didn’t actually cry yet ( finals exam in on the 4th) like i always do. I cried before every freakin exams but i havent so gotta check the right date to cry and be motivated again.
Haih i know i sound like a crazy lady, but thats how 3months courses can do to your whooe body, mind and soul.
Bye for today
P/s i know i said i wanted to continue yesterday’s post but i just forgot what i really wanted to say. Probably had to ask my heart again at 5 in the morning later
Ciao
Ps why kan people kan always like this like yknow like this
But really, i do bite people. I mean if you just here just bcs you wanted to see how vulnerable i can be sometimes, please dont. I hate the feeling of being judged over all of my posts in this blog. I realise and i know that i looked like a mad woman, almost crazy, but not yet.
Anyways,
So i woke up today, suddenly wondering why i didnt start my own band yet (haha i know i laughed too) been wanting to be the cool kid since day 1. I said i didnt have anything special in me, expect for yknow reading educational materials a lot. I know that im such a nerdie ( but in denial) i wanted to do more things like a those grown up peopl in early 20s. I did my online business, selling socks nahhh it didn’t turned out good. Nak jadi instafamous lagi lah idok nya. So idk, if i ever wanted to be part of a band, im not that competent enough. My hands are so small pipel ! Its so hard for me to play the bar chords like yknow stretch here amd there.
Lany’s tour in malaysia !!!! Freakin 27th july but its ayah’s birthday. So yknow probably just sing the whole album in the bathroom and cry
Oh suddenly i realise that i didn’t actually cry yet ( finals exam in on the 4th) like i always do. I cried before every freakin exams but i havent so gotta check the right date to cry and be motivated again.
Haih i know i sound like a crazy lady, but thats how 3months courses can do to your whooe body, mind and soul.
Bye for today
P/s i know i said i wanted to continue yesterday’s post but i just forgot what i really wanted to say. Probably had to ask my heart again at 5 in the morning later
Ciao
Ps why kan people kan always like this like yknow like this
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