Note 1
What is soul without its guardian, thing that will keep it to move forward and at peace. I honestly dont know how to express the feeling of being protected, which I strongly felt last december.
I felt empty and a bit upset as things are quite different now. My focus are divert towards something else, more like dunya, which, always will be upsetting to everyone. Because it’s temporary.
I questioned myself a lot, whether i deserve all of His kindness that i was too blinded to see. Last 2 years were rough, i did have the idea of jumping from my window, or probably yknow few cuts on my wrist. The only thing that keeps me going is the idea of seeing Him someday at the after life and i wont be able to do so if i keep hurting myself. I prayed a lot, asking for help. Sometimes getting angry bcs i felt like none of my prayers were answered. Little did i know, he invited me there, to be in the holliest city on earth, to pray to cry to spill everything to Him.
There are a lot of reasons to live, and definitely He is one of it. Time is running out, for me, for everyone. Are we even ready ?
I felt terrible. I was that rough, we all hold to that one particular statement, ‘hidayah milik Allah’ but it didnt come by itself, we have to seek for it. And im still here searching for the right way dont know where to begin.
This post is totally random but by far the most important one. We are all scared, scared by the idea of the doomsday, thats why we tried to ignore it and live our life like usual. Little did we know, the day, the judgement day is like one breath away.
Death on the other hand is another thing. Its vital and pasti that u didnt know when and how it will happen someday. Im scared of it, totally. You will never know whether you die bcs u are sick or getting hit or even in ur sleep sometimes.
Everyone is scared of it. We are not that powerful, not immortal. Pray, thats one of the keys to His jannah.
I felt empty and a bit upset as things are quite different now. My focus are divert towards something else, more like dunya, which, always will be upsetting to everyone. Because it’s temporary.
I questioned myself a lot, whether i deserve all of His kindness that i was too blinded to see. Last 2 years were rough, i did have the idea of jumping from my window, or probably yknow few cuts on my wrist. The only thing that keeps me going is the idea of seeing Him someday at the after life and i wont be able to do so if i keep hurting myself. I prayed a lot, asking for help. Sometimes getting angry bcs i felt like none of my prayers were answered. Little did i know, he invited me there, to be in the holliest city on earth, to pray to cry to spill everything to Him.
There are a lot of reasons to live, and definitely He is one of it. Time is running out, for me, for everyone. Are we even ready ?
I felt terrible. I was that rough, we all hold to that one particular statement, ‘hidayah milik Allah’ but it didnt come by itself, we have to seek for it. And im still here searching for the right way dont know where to begin.
This post is totally random but by far the most important one. We are all scared, scared by the idea of the doomsday, thats why we tried to ignore it and live our life like usual. Little did we know, the day, the judgement day is like one breath away.
Death on the other hand is another thing. Its vital and pasti that u didnt know when and how it will happen someday. Im scared of it, totally. You will never know whether you die bcs u are sick or getting hit or even in ur sleep sometimes.
Everyone is scared of it. We are not that powerful, not immortal. Pray, thats one of the keys to His jannah.
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